Monday, May 24, 2010


I am scared. I am scared to be thin. I need to lose another 70 lbs. I have always been large. My personality is what I relied on to bring people to me. If I lose the weight and look better then what I have. My personality will not be the first thing they see. It will be my looks or atleast so I think. Having people look at me differently is very scary to me. I have never been pretty or attractive. It was my friends who captured their eye. I have always been the 3rd wheel. It's not like I wanna start dating anyone. It's the idea of people enjoying my inside and not my outside.

Sounds stupid doesn't it.